Friday, September 2, 2016

who is that?

I like this, I did everything wrong with the camera, like I usually do, and somehow I come out looking like the person I think I am instead of the person I am. And somehow in doing that a miracle happened and all my wrinkles went away!  Maybe it's a good thing that I never learn to use the camera correctly.

I wish my whole life was like this, a blur. Something that came out the way I thought it should be instead of the way it really is.

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  1. N that is one of the more profound things I thought about today. What would life be like if everything turned out they way we wanted it? My guess is we would have a lot of enemies. ;-)

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  2. HAhahahahahah! Well, I already have a lot of enemies and mine didn't even get close to what I wanted. If I had achieved the life I wanted, then I would probably be dead..hahahah!
    Do you have any idea how funny you are? xo

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    1. So I have heard! When I had my daughter I had post-partum depression which is just depression with a baby. I went to a support group and they all said I should do stand up. I don't think I am so funny as just honest. I say whatever comes into my head. No filter.

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    2. That is what is so delightful about you! Because like you said in one of your posts, depression doesn't stop us from being funny, happy, competent, productive and most of all loving.
      I don't filter much either, although I do some, mostly because of my own self-inflicted peer pressure (please like me want me love me) ughh. And oddly when I am alone with my daughter, even though we are both bipolar, we are usually in fits of laughter at the absurdity of it all.

      Actually, Birdie, I just realized that it might be because of the example of your spontaneity of thought, that I am becoming a little bit more so. It's freeing. :)

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  3. Yes, like that picture. Very painterly.

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  4. in the multiverse theory you did get the life you wanted and planty that you didn't want as well.

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    1. Yes, that's the way I read it too, Ellen.

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    2. PS: Thanks for reminding me.

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  5. Nice photo Liv! You are quite beautiful.

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    1. Thank you, Colette. Shit, it's hard to take a compliment isn't it?
      The image we hold in our head is so much different than what the mirror or the camera tells us. I never like being photographed because it's always, for me, confirmed my mother's opinion of me. This one kind of captured mine.

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    2. Yes, it IS hard to take a compliment. Still, I think within us all there is a place where we know the truth, that we ARE beautiful. It is a nice place. It is a place where we can hang our hat and settle in for a while.

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    3. A lovely thought, Colette.

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  6. In all the photos I've seen of you your head is surrounded in light. Some might call this an aura but I can't say yay or nay about auras but that light is there I noticed it right away. You are beautiful but more importantly you are beautiful inside.

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  7. You say that because you love me. Thank you, Rebecca xo

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  8. I agree with everyone else, you have a luminous beauty and are a very talented writer and artist. Please keep writing!
    Xoxo
    Barbara

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    1. Your entreaty to keep writing is fuel for the pen.
      Thank you, Barbara

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  9. What a gorgeous photo. Gorgeous you. I love your last line, too.

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  10. I know you know what I'm talking about, E.
    You know I love you dearly x

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  11. Probably one of the best selfies I've ever seen in my life. :-) I am no selfie expert (only taken two in my life and the second one was after a marathon, so, I was pretty wiped out by then :-D).

    Greetings from London.

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  12. Nice to see you back!

    Really, it was just an accident of an inexperienced camera owner. But it looked enough not like me that I thought it acceptable. Ha!
    But thanks for the compliment.

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