Normally I would apologize for a post like this. Not today. I know I don't post often. So maybe people kind of forget that I am here. But I am. I have a good number of people who read me, I can see that. I'm well aware that I should blog more, I don't need reminding and believe me, I know that's totally my fault. I try to write more, but sometimes I get stuck. Every time I write, I do get at least one or two comments, and sometimes more (thank you!) - so I'm not writing about you. The thing is, I comment on a lot of blogs. I love what you write, (good, bad or otherwise). I try very hard to let you know that I do. In fact, I rarely don't comment, but lord knows I'm not perfect and I don't expect you to be either, I'm only asking for an occasional hello. And if I never said anything at all to you that would be because I don't know you're there. I don't know who you are. (or I might be a little shy, maybe you are too) If you visit and say something, then I can visit you and say something - sounds like fun to me. ( oww, cringe, maybe I comment on you and you never read me, cringe again)
Comments help. At least they seem to help/matter to the people who are receiving mine, if for no other reason than so that they know I am there, for them, appreciating their effort and their words. So if you hear me, if you read me, if you appreciate what I write, a comment would really help me to know that I'm not invisible, that you see me. It would help me. And please know that I am aware that some people don't get any comments. And some that I read don't get any comment except mine and they both seem to be ok with that. I hope that they would speak up if they're not. If they are then I am in awe of them.... but I'm not like that.
It's kind of embarrassing to say this stuff. It will be even more embarrassing if doesn't change anything, but what the fuck, just about everything in life is a risk . If you have something negative to say, go ahead, it doesn't mean I'll publish it, but at least I'll hear it and consider it. The good stuff is like...well, you know what it's like.
Now I'm going to step away and think about my next post. I hope I'll write it soon. Big breath, no matter what.
I'm going to have a good day, I hope you do too.